My photography project of trying to capture my natal chart is proving tricky and I’m being picky… or am I being indecisive.
This shot was originally supposed to represent Uranus in Libra in the 1st, that’s what I was thinking when I took the shot, but afterwards I thought it worked better for my Jupiter, which I have been having all sorts of trouble trying to express in an image.
When I decided that this was Jupiter and not Uranus, I had a falling out with myself. The side debating for Uranus fought a typically Uranian fight, electrically charged at first, intent on winning, then it got bored, the storm was over, it shrugged, said – Fine, Jupiter, you can have it, you want it more than I do. Ceding victory to Jupiter meant that Uranus was free to come up with a new image for itself, something wild, different, and over the top weird. Electricity sparked again. Uranus was happy, Jupiter was happy, everybody wins.
The main reason I thought that this image suited Jupiter in my chart is because I’m balancing on a fence, and my Jupiter is in Libra whose symbol is the scales, but also because I’m sitting on the fence, which is very much how I experience this position. Trying to make a decision is one of the hardest things I do in life (I’m exaggerating, Jupiter tends to have that effect), because I get caught up in weighing the pro and cons of all options. I can see the value of every option, and then I can’t decide what I actually want to do.
“Let’s not go and ruin it by thinking too much.” ― Clint Eastwood
A while later it struck me that I was doing a rather silly impersonation of Clint Eastwood in the picture. I love Clint Eastwood films! One of my all time favourites is High Plains Drifter. I grew up overdosing on Spaghetti Westerns, as well as the more traditional kind. I played cowboy a lot as a child. I didn’t kill Indians, I didn’t like that, it seemed wrong to me. But I did kill baddies, fairly though, always giving them the chance to be a quicker draw than I was. I occasionally died. It’s the luck of the draw!
“Will Munny: It’s a hell of a thing, killing a man. Take away all he’s got and all he’s ever gonna have.
The Schofield Kid: Yeah, well, I guess they had it coming.
Will Munny: We all got it coming, kid.” – Unforgiven (1992)
My natal Jupiter is located in the 2nd house, which represents personal values, and since my attitude towards values is very individual, it ties in with the Clint influence. Rather than just accepting the values of others as my own I like to check each value out to see whether it suits me, and if it does I usually modify it to fit me rather than modify myself to fit it. If it doesn’t suit me, then with a kick of my spurs (sorry horse) I ride away from it. This attitude often gets me into trouble with other people, especially when they want to impose their version of reality on me or when they can’t peg me because I don’t fit the criteria of behaviour which they are used to encountering in others. This really irks manipulators.
“Sarah Belding: Be careful. You’re a man who makes people afraid, and that’s dangerous.
The Stranger: It’s what people know about themselves inside that makes ’em afraid.” – High Plains Drifter (1973)
I live by my own set of values, and often feel like an outcast because of it, but I like it that way. My Jupiter is conjunct my Uranus, being a maverick is not a choice, it is a vocation. Some people are just born to rebel, every atom of my being is rebellious, I’ve tried to conform, mostly because it would make life easier if I did, but it just doesn’t stick because I rebel against myself as much as I do with the rest of the world.
“There’s a rebel lying deep in my soul… I hate imitation; I have a reverence for individuality.” – Clint Eastwood, Wild Open Spaces: Why We Love Westerns
So, I live the way I believe life should be lived, for myself, not for others. To each his own path. On my path I… Walk my talk as best as I can. Try to understand the perspective of others. Try to be fair. Know when to admit that I’m wrong, give credit to someone else when they are right. Try not to lie, cheat, deceive… but if it happens, accept that I’m human, own up to it and make amends if necessary… sometimes it isn’t necessary because I’m dishing out justice to a baddie. Although usually I leave the justice dishing out to karma, baddies often end up shooting themselves… but sometimes we have to confront those who have done us wrong and show them that their actions have consequences, and those consequences have to be faced.
“Jed Cooper: You don’t remember me, do you?
Reno, Cooper Hanging Party: No.
Jed Cooper: [showing his hanging scar] When you hang a man, you better look at him.” – For A Few Dollars More (1965)
The more I think about it, the more I realise that I have captured the essence of what Jupiter in Libra in the 2nd house means to me. There is even a breeze tickling my poncho in the picture, Libra is an Air sign… Phew, now on to the next planet.
[The Stranger rides away]
*Rides off into the sunset….. falls off horse….. gets up, shakes the dust off…. gets back on horse and resumes ride.