Solstice – Between a Door Closing and a Door Opening

This week I have been caught in between several minds about my life – the past, the present and the future. Part of me needs to think things through… another part would rather not think… and… so on.

Luckily, at the end of this week I was whisked away to another time and place.

 

 

Swan Bridge

 

My partner’s family gathered for a celebration… not at their country pile, not at Downton Abbey… just at an hotel which mimics a time and place of that sort. It is real but not real, and that is a rather nice land in between in which to take a break.

My partner’s family are lovely and very different from my own family of origin… which is again, lovely. Yes, they have issues, all humans do as it is a part of the experience of being alive and living, but there is always a true bond of love running through everything with them. My family wouldn’t know love if it labeled itself succinctly and hit them in the face repeatedly.

I did not know all of his family, but the ones I do know… it was wonderful to catch up with them and their life adventures… and the ones whom I did not know, it was a pleasure to meet them all. It was an embracing hug from all… for one who does not particularly like hugs, but at times sees the joy of them.

In between socialising, I wandered around the grounds of this magnificent hotel and explored its secret nooks and crannies. Signs abounded and I felt that each one had a message of sorts for me. Whether I understood them of not…

 

 

 

MindYourHead

 

No, thank you… I’d rather not mind my head at the moment, it’s full of chaos and it might lead me astray…

 

 

TheArchOfAngels

 

However I will pass through this threshold to see what lies on the other side… I’ll try to avoid hitting my head. I once used to long for amnesia… now, not so much, good memories are beginning to outnumber bad ones…

 

 

TheSecretThreshold

 

 

So many ways to go, which shall I choose… maybe all… following paths hither and thither, roaming without a map or a destination in sight…

 

 

ThisDoorClosesAtDusk

 

On the day of the solstice a door closing at dusk seems… not so ominous as dusk is a long way off, kind of like death seems to be at times… so I ventured onwards without fear of being locked in or locked out – unsure of which was which, what side I was on of anything really…

 

 

Delights

 

A sign beckoned me to look closer and read its ancient wisdom… yes, yes…. when all within is at peace… how rare that is, but when it is, how blissful…

Just keep going, don’t stop too long or you might congeal and turn into a statue…

 

 

Statue-Esque

 

A statue who seems to whether all the storms of life without a care in the world… it’s easy to appear that way, but it is just an appearance which is easy to give. yet not so easy to take.

Keep going…

Through a gate seemingly guarded by angels… to a place in between… a place of momentary rest…

 

 

DangerKeepOutOfChurch

 

 

Not here, the sign warns not to linger… well, one sign – plus fence to add gravitas – warns of danger within the confines of this chapel. The other sign which can’t be read in the photo, claims that this place is still consecrated and open for sanctuary to all who seek it… but you may get in trouble for trespassing… I don’t know, this church is giving mixed messages.

Yet close to the church is a folly which can be entered… which is rabbit approved…

 

 

RabbitFolly

 

But perhaps it only is for rabbits…

Keep going… to another place…

 

 

TerraceRetreat

 

A terrace in the clouds… sort of… a place between rooms, a sun trap which is highly recommended by butterflies.

 

 

TortoiseshellButterfly

 

It was nice to get away… it gives a certain much needed perspective – outside of yourself and your routine – but you can’t run away from yourself or your life… well… you can try… but it always chases you, hunts you down and forces you to face things.

Perhaps those things aren’t as bad as they seem, and even if they are, best to face them head on… then maybe you can pass through them, pass through the in between and find out what lies on the other side.

Such is life… a mix of mixed messages both good, bad and many shades in between…

The adventure continues….

 

 

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