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Sometimes I wonder…

Irene Cara – Out Here on My Own (from Fame – 1980)

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Sometimes I wonder
Where I’ve been
Who I am, do I fit in?
Make-believing is hard alone
Out here, on my own

We’re always proving
Who we are
Always reaching
For that rising star
To guide me far
And shine me home
Out here on my own

When I’m down and feeling blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you
Oh, baby, be strong for me
Baby, belong to me
Help me through
Help me need you

Until the morning sun appears
Making light of all my fears
I dry the tears I’ve never shown
out here on my own

But when I’m down and feeling blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you
Oh, baby, be strong for me
Baby, belong to me
Help me through
Help me need you

Sometimes I wonder
Where I’ve been
Who I am, do I fit in?
I may not win
But I can’t be thrown
Out here on my own
Out here
On my own

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Not sure what reminded me of this, but here it is…

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When this song and the film – Fame (1980) – from which it comes were popular. When the film (plus the series which grew out of the film) was at its height of popularity with popular culture, and its soundtrack became the soundtrack of others, of society, there was a child (Nikka Costa) who became celebrated for her version of this song.

Not sure if this was just a localised fame for her version of the song or more global, as this was before the internet, the online, the www, and communication as we know it now.

Her story rang some bells… some red flag bells… but I didn’t know what those were then, so bells were just bells with a certain feeling attached to them.

She’s fine now, apparently, so all is copacetic, but at the time, her story and mine… so different and yet… some things were eerily familiar even with their vast differences.

Sometimes I wonder…

6 comments

    • The similarities were something I saw as a child, not sure if they make any sense now that I’m an adult other than through the eyes of me then. I was finding pieces of a puzzle in things I observed – which is something I still do, it’s kind of interesting to compare how I did it then with how I do it now. Something about how I perceived her story at that time, the time itself being relevant, explained something to me about my experiences then. There was an incident then which could have gone a certain way not dissimilar to hers. And something reminded me of that now.

      When we are reminded of things, they can be relevant to the now.

      When I read the lyrics of the song, this bit struck me as weird and insightful:

      Help me through
      Help me need you

      It made me bristle and yet explained a detail of human interaction in a rather succinct manner. It also connected with a scene from a TV show I was watching the other day which touched upon relationship dynamics and the role of need.

      Life is a strange revealer 🙂

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