An Upturned Soul Update

Hello everyone,

I’m going to be mainly absent from my blog over the next few weeks.

I’m doing a bit of this:


something you've never done


Actually I’ve already done a bit of that,

and it has consequences.

I think those are this:


what's best for me


But if you know how I make decisions these days,

then you’re aware that…

I’ve sort of given up being cautious.

Being cautious designed me a bespoke straight jacket and gave me a lovely all mod cons padded cell to live in.

I had a thought last night while internally screaming,

and wondering if… it’s all a big mistake.

I can’t remember what that thought was,

but it was very soothing.



Take good care of yourselves,

and best wishes with whatever you’re up to in your lives.

lots of love form me to you,

Ursula πŸ˜‰


  1. “” I am free, not matter what rules me. If I find them tolerable, I I tolerate them; if I find them obnoxious , I break them. I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do “””” Robert Heinleim


      • Thank you πŸ™‚

        I’m just moving house, but this move is different from all the others I’ve done in my life. I’m not planning on leaving my online home, you’re all moving with me πŸ˜€

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        • Change is scary and exciting at the same time..Moving out and being in a new home is stressful but i wish you to live the less complicated moving out of history, maybe with the help of Mary Poppins with her magic suitcases and tiding up special skills, clothes, objects and BOOKS, they are so heavy!!!
          I’ll be thinking of

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          • Yes, magic would be rather useful πŸ™‚ but perhaps doing it the non-magic way makes it more symbolic, more real, and helps the system to adjust to the change bit by bit. It’s an interesting adventure on so many levels.


  2. I love you and I’m proud of you. I hope to give you more positives updates. Take good care of yourself. Thank you for being you Ursula.

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  3. I sent this video to my ex. I dunno what the hell he said and have taken a vow of silence, but it seemed like a good fuck you as any way.


  4. Oh no… Ursula you’re my special mojo, I selfishly don’t want you to disappear for some time… You’re my favourite cup of coffee, especially in a situation where I decided to do the same like your picture at the edge… I am leaving London, I had three worst days, people turning and twisting things around, disrespect and yada yada… It just doesn’t work for me… I’ve tried many ways… And now makes me sad that you (my happy place) are disappearing for some time…I’ve watched Crimson Peak last night, Del Toro is one of my fav directors… And was thinking of you afterwards… I was like… This is kind of how I imagine your inner world…pls take care of yourself… And come back ASAP!!!! You’re needed here πŸ™‚

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      • Oh good… As I am a bit overwhelmed with the reality atm, I take everything too dramatically πŸ™‚

        May I ask if you will still be in The UK? I hope your new place looks like the house from Crimson Peak (me fantasising :)) …then I am deffo coming for a cup of tea, and staying in forever, even if I have to turn into a ghost πŸ™‚


  5. My dear cryptic Ursala- I’ll be thinking of you. And still wishing I could invite you over for tea to hear what’s going on

    Take good care of yourself in this absence which is something I have not learned to do yet.



  6. Just to tell you i miss you and I hope everything is going well.i wish you to feel at home at once. baci xx


    • Grazie di cuore ❀

      I'm so tired at the moment that I haven't really had time to think about anything, which is kind of nice because it's like taking a holiday from my mind πŸ˜‰

      The new place just feels like a natural home, I've never lived anywhere before which had that feeling about it, and things have gone really smoothly, even the few problems have been helpers along the way. It's funny but I didn't realise how anxious the house I've been living in made me until I moved into this one, it's just so relaxing here.

      My main concern at this time is making sure my cat feels comfortable too as she has to adjust to a new territory, and there's also the matter of a resident cat which came with the new place. We adopted the previous owner's cat, who is very lovely and has similarities to our cat, so hopefully they'll get along once we introduce them to each other. They've met briefly, sniffed noses, and seem okay with each other.

      I'll be back soon.

      Spero che tutto va bene con te e che stai prendendo cura di te stessa, sei veramente un'anima bellissima e preziosa ❀

      Baci e abbracci πŸ™‚


      • I hear you, sometimes we need to change the outside scenery as it helps us focus on different issues.I am so happy for you as you have picked exactly what you needed, it’s a special emotion to see a house and then it becomes our home as we grow to love the walls, they protect us from the world;in a way home to me is an outer body and when i am in it i am utterly a mind inhabiting it..sorry for the rambling!
        I am sure your lady cat has been reassured and loved during all these years so she is particularly resilient, you have been a particularly good parent ( haha, I am a very good cat parent too! My cat doesn’t panic or fear to be abandoned) so you gave her the feeling she is being loved no matter what, even if another pud is coming along, she won’t lose her beloved Ursula.
        E’ un momento molto duro, cerco di non affondare in pensieri piu’ neri dell’oscuritΓ , il passato con una famiglia come la nostra attanaglia la nostra mente, come se avessimo apura di quello che Γ© successo, retroattivo.
        ti abbraccio forte e coraggio con il trasloco! xxx


        • Hi πŸ™‚

          I’m doing well, hope all is well with you too especially considering recent news events.

          I’ll be back to blogging in a few days, at least I plan to be. I need to figure out a new system as I can’t do things the way I used to. Every time I sit down, something happens which needs sorting out. Quando piove, diluvia. The other day it was the septic tank (which I knew needing fixing but not this soon. Oh well…), and my office is still a bit topsy turvy.

          Take good care of yourself, abbracci ❀


          • In Paris everybody mourns, it’s a rain of sadness for the people who are not there anymore.
            i am glad to hear you are almost settled, I hope in a nice frame that suits your way of being and living. Take your time, i hope your house is already home to you and the cat has found her paradise too (and a bit of company). Au plaisir de te lire! xxx


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