The title of this post – It’s Like Nothing I do Makes a Difference – comes from something I jotted down on a pad I have on my desk for jotting somethings down…
These somethings are things which don’t really have words to describe them and the words used to describe them don’t really describe them, their usual form isn’t in word form, their usual form isn’t in imagery form either, their usual form isn’t emotional, it isn’t in thought form, it…
It is something which isn’t really a something but it is a something.
It’s something inside of me… but is it?
Now that I’ve made that clear…
I can move on to something else…
and briefly on to someone else.
Someone recently commented on one of my recent posts and mentioned that a Sabian Symbol I’d used in that post was the exact Sabian Symbol for their Ascendant (you know who you are and you can claim this if you want to – I’m never sure whether to do that or not, because I don’t know if you want that or not).
What they said inspired me to look up the Sabian Symbol for my Asc, and then I decided to do that for all the significant degrees of my natal chart – ASC, IC, DSC, IC, House Cusps and planets, NN, and Chiron. I could have added other astrological bits and pieces but for now I’m keeping it simple.
It may not seem as though I like simplicity, but I do.
If a system is too complicated, I tend to decide that that system is not for me.
If a system has too many labels and sub-labels for every label, hierarchies and hierarchies within each hierarchy, orderly orders and sub-ordered-orders, then I tend to get too confused trying to find myself in that intricate system created by someone else.
Kind of like I felt when I played Zorc and couldn’t figure out what to type to reach into a hole and get what was there which would move the story on – I never did move the story on (I did eventually look it up in a walkthrough and shrugged at the solution – I thought I’d tried that, obviously I didn’t say it exactly as I was supposed to say it).
When I get confused, I get angry, when I get angry... I eventually end up simplifying things for myself (after I’ve probably complicated them enough to push me over the edge into simplification), which often means deciding that someone else’s system is not for me.
I don’t fit in to their system – and that’s most likely a good thing for me.
A couple of the someone else’s systems which I’ve decided are not for me are:
1 – The Enneagram as re-packaged for popular consumption by Riso-Hudson (I quite liked the Enneagram’s earlier roots in the weird world of Gurdjieff, because it wasn’t a confining system, it was an idea which could go anywhere and take you anywhere with it if you felt like going there, everything after that added on by others made the whole thing less interesting and more of a personality type thing which seemed to be more about concretising a persona for yourself and squishing yourself into that persona box whether you fit in it or not).
2 – The New Improved WordPress system which has all these extra bells and whistles that for me make blogging hard work and… take away the spontaneity of it because to just do a quick post (even one of my long rambling ones) you suddenly have to make a billion blogger blogging choices, and those categorise the fun out of yourself and your spontaneous share.
While the system of astrology is quite complicated, it also offers many simplified versions – basically you can choose which version of it you want to use, how you want to use it, and… I like that (my natal chart likes that, my progressed chart likes it too, and my transits… they sometimes don’t like it).
Sabian Symbols is a system that was created awhile ago by someone (look it up if you want to know more, it’s an intriguingly weird story) as an add-on to astrology – you can take it or leave it. Of course it’s been updated, revised, re-explained, and made more complex for… those who want to understand it better.
The Sabian Symbols I’m using are the basic ones, copy & pasted from: CafeAstrology – Sabian Symbols | Degree Meanings
The story told of my natal chart by the Sabian Symbols is what I’m going to share in this post.
For those who get a bit overwhelmed or confused by all the rambling which I do in my posts – I’m not doing that in this post because… I got punched in the gut today by some news (whatever you’re imagining – it’s not that. You need to be me to know what would punch me in the gut, and even I sometimes don’t know what would do that until it happens), and I really don’t feel like talking.
The gut punch did connect to something, more than one something, in the Sabian Symbols story of my chart.
I’m staring at the degree of the Asc, and will work my way around the natal chart merry-go-round from there and back again, ending at my natal Moon which conjuncts my Asc. I’m not going to mention aspects, or transits.
ASC | 1st House Cusp – Virgo 11: In Her Baby A Mother Sees Her Deep Longing For A Son Answered
Pluto 1st house – Virgo 26: A Boy With A Censer Serves The Priest Near The Altar
Uranus 1st house – Libra 5: A Man Revealing To His Students The Foundation Of An Inner Knowledge Upon Which A “New World” Could Be Built
2nd House Cusp – Libra 5: A Man Revealing To His Students The Foundation Of An Inner Knowledge Upon Which A “New World” Could Be Built
Jupiter 2nd house – Libra 6: A Man Watches His Ideals Taking A Concrete Form Before His Inner Vision
3rd House Cusp – Scorpio 4: A Youth Carries A Lighted Candle In A Devotional Ritual
Mars in 3rd house – Scorpio 6: The Gold Rush Tears Men Away From Their Native Soil
Neptune in 3rd house – Scorpio 28: The King Of The Fairies Approaching His Domain
IC – 4th House Cusp – Sagittarius 8: Within The Depths Of The Earth New Elements Are Being Formed
5th House Cusp – Capricorn 12: An Illustrated Lecture On Natural Science Reveals Little-Known Aspects Of Life
Sun in 5th house – Capricorn 18: The Union Jack Flag Files From A British Warship
Mercury in 5th house – Aquarius 6: A Masked Figure Performs Ritualistic Acts In A Mystery Play
6th House Cusp – Aquarius 14: A Train Entering A Tunnel
Venus in 6th house – Pisces 4: Heavy Car Traffic On A Narrow Isthmus Linking Two Seashore Resorts
DSC | 7th House Cusp – Pisces 11: Men Traveling A Narrow Path, Seeking Illumination
Chiron in 7th house – Pisces 30: A Majestic Rock Formation Resembling A Face Is Idealized By A Boy Who Takes It As His Ideal Of Greatness, And As He Grows Up, Begins To Look Like It
North Node in 7th house – Aries 5: A Triangle With Wings
8th House Cusp – Aries 5: A Triangle With Wings
Saturn in 8th house – Aries 19: The “Magic Carpet” Of Oriental Imagery
9th House Cusp – Taurus 4: The Pot Of Gold At The End Of The Rainbow
MC – 10th House Cusp – Gemini 8: Aroused Strikers Surround A Factory
11th House Cusp – Cancer 12: A Chinese Woman Nursing A Baby Whose Aura Reveals Him To Be The Reincarnation Of A Great Teacher
12th House Cusp – Leo 14: A Human Soul Seeking Opportunities For Outward Manifestation
Moon in 12th house – Virgo 6: A Merry-Go-Round
It’s kind of interesting for me to look at my natal chart in this bare skeletal manner – it kind of explains the main themes of my life and myself to me.
I like astrology because sometimes it has a way (at least the way I use it) of explaining things in a simplified manner.
And I truly don’t care if other people think astrology is bullshit, but exploring their views of astrology being bullshit and the systems they use which they view as not being bullshit (because they’re using them… in similar ways to the way that I use astrology) has been interesting too.
There’s room for everything here on Earth, although our human garbage is literally (as in garbage dumps, official and unofficial, garbage processing plants, etc) using up more and more space on this planet… but there’s still room for all of us and all of our human varied views, beliefs, and such.
Sometimes we clash with each other, our systems clash… and that can feel like one person punching another in the gut, one system punching another one in the gut.
Is this – It’s Like Nothing I do Makes a Difference – really true? Sometimes it definitely feels and seems true, but sometimes it is more of a case of – Something I did made a difference for me, and because it did I did some new things which I’d never been able to do before, and now I have to deal with the consequences which have arisen because I am no longer operating on an old system of mine.
Another of my jotted down somethings is – It’s Like I Don’t Exist – but that’s not as much of a problem as – Shit, I Exist, And, Double Shit, Someone Else Has Noticed That I Do!
I’ll be fine, and if I’m not fine I’ll figure out how to be fine not being fine, and if I don’t then I’ll just be not fine.
That’s as much talk from me as you’re going to get today…
over to you…
What popped into your head just now?