This post has had 47,478 views since I posted it back in April 2015. If I remember correctly (doesn’t really matter if I don’t), it was inspired by a search term in my blog stats. I wrote it for fun, and had fun rereading it today. The ‘oatmeal is an emotion’ thing made me chuckle whoever came up with that is a genius.
Why am I reposting it? I’m not sure really, it just caught my eye in the ‘top posts and pages’ of my blog for today, and…
Well, I thought it answered Fandango’s Provocative Question #14 for me better than I would if I wrote something now.
No, nothing I say or do or think or feel or experience has to make any sense at all to anyone other than myself.
To be honest… rather than dishonest, I suppose… even I, a Capricorn woman, am never sure if I like someone or not.
Like… is so oatmeal.
It takes time, interest, effort, and things like that to get to know someone.
Sometimes those you dislike during that phase known as the first impression, turn out to be people who you end up liking for life. And those you like during that same phase… sometimes they’re still likeable after the honeymoon is over, and sometimes… not so much.
We all put our ‘best’ face forward, especially when we are meeting new people… but what we think is our ‘best’ face, may not be what others think is a good face for them to look at.
We can’t see ourselves, they can. They can’t see themselves, we can. But what are we seeing when we look at them, and what are they seeing when they look at us?
Our face is often a mirror for others. If they don’t like themselves, they’re never going to like us eventually…
Just as their face is one which we may mistake as a mirror for us. If we don’t like ourselves, we’re never going to like them eventually…
… but they and we may play pretend for a while, a while where all is well until it begins to get unwell, then becomes quite sick.
This person likes me, therefore I’m awesome… maybe… issues apply, please read the smallprint (but don’t do that, that’s why it is smallprint).
This person doesn’t like me… OMG, what did I do or say which was wrong, this is a catastrophe, how do I make it better… do I dig a hole and bury myself in it or can I build a sand castle and distract everyone from me using it?
Personally, as a Capricorn woman…
… and many other things which go with being an individual, human being, who has had a life of experience (not necessarily the wisdom kind of experience, but maybe…) of living, being, interacting with other living beings…
… and is not just a Sun sign, as you trying to figure me out based solely on my Sun sign are not just your Sun sign…
I do tend to mistrust those who like me immediately.
I also mistrust myself when I like someone immediately.
Sometimes the mistrust is misplaced… but sometimes it’s not.
Being a Capricorn… I tend to go with erring on the side of caution. We’re a very cautious sign, for very logical reasons – People lie, and lies are rippling things, dominoes, and stuff like that.
You’re a people. We’re a people too. But for some reason other people seem to gloss over the fact that we’re a people.
If I’m wrong about being such a suspicious MF, then let me regret it and be relieved that I was wrong. I’ll even fess up to it… if you’re the sort of person I can trust with that kind of confession, then you’ll be the sort of friend I would gladly die for (within reason, that’s a poetic flourish, don’t make me prove it literally as you may be disappointed).
I’m not sure if I’m a stereotypical Capricorn… female. But one thing that is for sure… based on the grumblings of my tried and trusted friends, as well as those who fell by the wayside due to being untrustworthy or something like that… I am frigging difficult to get to know.
I’m sorry about that, I know it’s true, but I’m not sorry about that. It’s one of the ways I get to know you and decide if my like is real or superficial, and if you are real or… just a beautiful illusion.
Want to know if I like you? Put up with not knowing whether I like you or not.
Capricorns are capricious, always ‘testing’ people – even when we don’t want to do that, we do it. It seems to be part of the shit that we do. How you deal with our shit… makes a difference to us, because we know we’re shit.
Apologies… and stuff.
What about you?
If you watched that Billy Joel music video in this post, and judged it for the hair or old school stuff… good luck with getting ‘liked’ by a Capricorn. Maybe being ‘liked’ by a Capricorn is not for you. Listen to the words, get the message… don’t think what you see on the surface is the message.
“Make your interactions with people transformational, not just transactional.”
― Patti Smith (Capricorn female).