Sometimes I Climb the Walls and Lie on the Ceiling
Yesterday I was finishing off some DIY in the sitting room. Don't award me a halo. I was fixing a mess I'd made this Summer while trying to find the point of entry of swarming ants - the third time this happened I took out a hammer. My partner was in the room playing Fortnite.... Continue Reading →
[This is a repost of a post published in February 2015. It's amusing reading what I wrote back then, especially as I know what happened next (even though some of it is now a blur in the archive of memory). I did buy a house, and strangely enough I sometimes refer to this house as... Continue Reading →
[Please note: This is a repost of a post published in December 2013. This is another post which I've never forgotten writing. I've always loved this post... not because I think it's good, or clever, or anything like that, I have no idea if it's any of those things, but because of the feeling I... Continue Reading →
[Please note: This is a repost of a post published in June 2013. In the archives of my blog there are two subjects which I regularly write about - narcissists and astrology. Occasionally I've tried to blend the two together with varying degrees of failure. One of the things I like about astrology is that... Continue Reading →
Today is my birthday, and I'm saturning 49. I don't have too many thoughts about being 49 specifically, and being in my 50th year on planet Earth. (I have enjoyed being in my 40's, it's the best decade yet! But I have no idea if I'm doing my 40's as the 40's are supposed to... Continue Reading →
Do you ever have dreams which you can't explain to yourself... ones which don't seem to have any connection to anything you were thinking about or feeling before you fell asleep, which don't appear to connect to what you experienced, witnessed, noticed, saw, what had an impact upon you, your conscious or subconscious, during the... Continue Reading →
Like with most of my posts I'm going to jump around from subject to subject, go off on tangents, ramble seemingly randomly, babble about myself, and so on... if you haven't got the time or patience to sift through all of that to find what you're looking for, need or want from my word share,... Continue Reading →
My father died a few years ago... which was a bit of a surprise because he had been so convinced of his immortality that I'd begun to suspect he might be right about it, and wasn't as mad as he often sounded and seemed. While it was improbable, some improbable things do happen (the world... Continue Reading →
At the moment astrologically I am caught in the middle of transiting Pluto squaring natal Saturn and transiting Saturn squaring natal Pluto. For those who are not into astrology this roughly translates as - that bunker you built for yourself to protect you from the coming apocalypse and survive for many years... well the apocalypse... Continue Reading →
I was born at the end of a decade, just before a man landed on the Moon (... or did he?). I was a bit too young to appreciate that event, or be interested in it or anything else that happened then (including my birth... it's weird isn't it how our own birth is kind... Continue Reading →
Have you ever felt that someone was hiding something from you? Have you ever sensed that you were hiding something from yourself? An intangible itch, an elusive spot to scratch which can't quite be reached, a pricking of the thumbs, an intuitive hunch which won't tell you what it knows, a suspicion of something lurking... Continue Reading →
I once peed myself in the middle of a History lesson... and when I say I peed myself I mean it literally and not as an expression of how horrified I was about what humans have done to each other over the course of our history, nor do I mean that I peed a little... Continue Reading →
Who do you want to be when you grow up... and when exactly will you be a grown up? What to you is the essential ingredient which makes someone a grown up as opposed to a child in an adult body masquerading as a grown up? What's your public persona... and do others see you... Continue Reading →
Not all who wander are lost... so why are they wandering? If they're not trying to find their way home, following breadcrumb trails, yellow brick roads, or lights at the end of the tunnel, what are they trying to find? What if they're not trying to find anything? What if they're comfortable living without purpose,... Continue Reading →
What is me, me, me is often defined by what is mine, mine, mine. While we are not necessarily what we have... what we have is something which we may use to define who we are - or who others are. Someone who owns and wears in public a Rolex watch is going to get... Continue Reading →
I love astrology, and I don't care if people think the subject is bullshit or even dangerous... The above statement is both true and untrue, and subject to fluctuations, subtleties, nuances, and complex twists and turns common amongst humans. . something I keep in mind when looking at other humans, hope those other humans keep... Continue Reading →
. “I was looking for the key for years But the door was always open” ― Aravind Adiga . It really needs replacing, it's knackered, it is glued together with layers of paint, so stripping it before repainting it was not an option, but even though it is falling apart there's something about it which... Continue Reading →
. If you have a problem, a puzzle, an enigma, a matter which you would like to solve, an issue which is confusing you and which you would like to clarify, a knot you want to untie (figuratively or literally), a mess which you'd like to tidy up... one of the best signs to consult... Continue Reading →
Do you have a sense of what is fair and what is unfair? Do others agree with you about this? If they agree with you... is that fair? Let me put it another way, which may seem unfair as I may appear to be changing the rules or something like that... How does it feel... Continue Reading →
Have you ever worn a piece of clothing which has gradually become more and more uncomfortable, every move you make, it chafes your skin raw, digs into your flesh, scratches and itches like a million tiny biting bugs, until all you can think about is how you want to rip it off, tear it to... Continue Reading →
I have a friend who I can annoy very easily, and get them to react to me as though I was a Mentos dropped into a full Coke bottle, just by my mentioning astrology within earshot of them. If I had a penny for every time they felt compelled to tell me that astrology is... Continue Reading →
The other day I wrote a post about how blogs are people, how what you find on a blog reflects the person behind the blog who experiences all the ups, downs, and usual merry-go-round of being a human living life. I know that's obvious but sometimes the obvious gets obscured by... by what? By all... Continue Reading →
After forty years of careful consideration I have finally come to the conclusion... . . ... of a cycle of my life. . “I came into the world under the sign of Saturn -- the star of the slowest revolution, the planet of detours and delays.” ― Walter Benjamin . This theme has been played... Continue Reading →
Lilith in the 10th house in Astrology . At some point... you're not going to like me. That's what I always think when someone has recently met me, and is showing signs of having a friendly crush on me. If I were to say that - at some point you're not going to like me... Continue Reading →
Hiding behind this blog, there is a person, a human being (who used to wonder if they were an alien), a people just like you (okay, not exactly like you... you can stop panicking). The words you see in this post, come from the fingers of this person tapping out their thoughts and feelings onto... Continue Reading →
WARNING: This post contains the astrological musings of someone who isn't an astrologer but loves astrology (and also someone who often talks complete nonsense which seems sensical enough to them). . . Why do I feel the need to issue such a warning? It seems as silly to me as it may seems to you,... Continue Reading →
Do you like being asked questions? Do you like answering questions? Depends on the questions, doesn't it? What if those questions are about getting to know yourself, and the answers you give reveal you to yourself in some way? . . You may have noticed that the last few posts on this blog have a... Continue Reading →
In answer to - What's my favourite song? This'll do... perhaps because in Asian astrology I'm of the sign. . Something knocked me out ' the trees Now I'm on my knees . http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnVf1ZoCJSo . Monkey, Wheels keep turning Monkey, Something's burning Monkey, Don't like it but I guess I'm learning Shock! Shock! Shock! -... Continue Reading →
. No, not you, I wasn't speaking to you about you. You're fine, you're worthy and deserve to be loved for it and for everything else about you. I wasn't speaking to the narcissists in my life either, to my narcissistic parents who often seemed to be saying these words to me. I wasn't speaking... Continue Reading →
. Is anger your ally or your enemy? Is it your little friend or foe? What makes you angry? . . How do you deal with your anger? Are you in control of it or does it control you? Are these questions making you angry? Why am I asking? Well... It started last night, but... Continue Reading →
